SMack!

Journey Into Electric Darkness

by voltsjolts - 28.01.2005

WARNING:

Do not repeat any of the acts I describe here. They were stupid and dangerous and could have resulted in serious injury or death. This is a true personal account of how I got involved with bdsm and electric play as an ignorant person blind to the potential deadliness of my homemade toys. This story is not encouragement to try anything it describes and I discourage anyone from starting down this path.

I am a grown adult now but got into BDSM, electric play, and self bondage on my own early in life with absolutely no influence from anyone else. Until posting this story to the net it has been a complete and dark secret of mine. It is a bad idea to say at what exact age it all started but let's just say it was the beginning of puberty.

While playing with an instructional electronics kit there was a mistake involving a relay and an audio transformer that generated a square-wave ac signal. Touching the transformer output by accident produced a shock to the fingers. The feeling immediately captured my interest so I explored further by touching two wires to various parts of my body. Fortunately, safety was a concern and there was a clear knowledge not to not do anything stupid like connect a circuit across the heart. After playing with feet, legs and butt cheeks the next thing was to try sticking one wire up my ass and touching the other one just on the outside. With the contact area of single bare wires being so small the sensation was instant pinpoint burning pain. That was not fun right away but the potential was obvious there had to be something worth further investigation.

The first step in my exploration was to go from a mistake to a serious electro shock circuit. Using a simple relay interrupter hooked up to pulse into a transformer worked fine. The frequency was too high at first and produced a tickle buzzy kind of feeling. Adding a capacitor across the relay to slowed it down some. Playing with different values got the frequency reduced to about 50hz which caused the most powerful muscle contractions. The overall sensation wasn't strong enough yet so further modifications were needed produce more output. More batteries helped and the audio transformer was very small so that was replaced with a larger one from a broken radio. That made it all too strong so it hade to have a variable resistor added to adjust the output intensity.

Next, it was time to build and test various electrodes to see what they felt like. Larger surface area contacts produced less burning and more of a deep shock than small contacts. Also, if one electrode was large and the other was small then all of the sensation of shock would come from the smaller side. It was fun to place a large foil contact on each butt cheek and cause powerful contractions. From internal anal experimentation, the greatest sensitivity and muscle response was produced with the electrode placed 1/2 to 1 inch inside. This was determined after positioning electrodes at various depths up to about 10 inches. Placing an electrode deeper inside thinking it would give more powerful sensations is not correct. It didn't do much even with full power, it just produced a weird sick nauseous ache inside that made me nearly throw up. That wasn't very fun and the risk of damaging an internal organ seemed real so the deep stuff was abandoned and play was restricted to the outer regions of the anus. Two circular electrodes running around the probe produced pain but not much in the way of contractions. Side-by-side contacts running front to back along the probe caused a powerful response. Using the large transformer and touching the battery to it manually for just one single shock pulse caused a contraction hard enough to jerk the whole lower body around.

It is hard to remember or describe exactly what I first liked about doing this. The sensations were just so addictive. It was unexplainable but I just liked this specific kind of pain from electricity and liked it best in my anus and nowhere else. I wanted more of it and could not be stopped. My ass kept getting used to the shock level and whatever hurt for a while would eventual fade and become uninteresting. This started a neverending desire for a more and more powerful sensation. The way to get it was adding more batteries and an even bigger transformer. The circuit was finally capable of an output level so high I could not work up the raw nerve to willingly turn the resistor all the way down.

Again, that became easy and boring after a while and new dimensions were needed. I wanted to feel out of control and push my limits of pain so an off switch was hooked up to a wind-up mechanical timer to produce a timed shock. I would try to just lay still and take it until the timer ran out but any level of shock tollerable for starting out would eventually become too small after a while. That meant repeatedly reaching over and turning up the shock to get more effect and again it was still limited by will power. That was fixed by hooking up a second timer to the variable resistor so the intensity would start out very small and automatically build up to maximum. It was exciting because the resistor didn't always move smoothly and sometimes there would be big sudden jumps in shock level. Now hands were no longer needed to adjust the device once started and it was possible to tie myself up somewhat to pretend being stuck. At first I would always test it out briefly at maximum with the electrode in my ass to know exactly what I was getting into and make sure it was possible to tolerate it full strength. That was still too much predictability and no real surprise. So, I started adding an extra battery and starting the timers without knowing how strong it was going to be when the resistor reached zero. Again it was not enough excitement because even with all the timers there was still some level of control since it was always possible to just untie the ropes and reach over to turn it off any time. The only possible escalation from here was true total loss of control combined with helpless submission to an unknown amount of pain.